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My Mask

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Cracked.
Every day a little more breaks and falls away.
I must walk with careful footsteps, or I might trip and shatter.
I try to glue the pieces back in place, but as I do more breaks away.
This mask is wearing thin.

I don't want others to see lies beneath it, in that filthy shrouded darkness.
I am not ready to let it see the light.
The light is far too painful.. and the darkness beneath the mask is somehow comforting.
The pain isn't always stabbing, sometimes it's just a dull ache.
But I have become accustomed to it, now it is a comfort.

I would go insane if light were to enter my world.
My thick darkness.
That 'happiness' would try to invade.
It would cause utter madness.
I could never be truly happy in a world like that.

Maybe I am happy.
Maybe this pain is my happiness.
Maybe these tears are my way of smiling.
It is so common for me to feel this.
Just as it is common for others to smile and laugh.

Maybe this is my joy.
Then if this is my joy... what is my love?
Do I dare ask that question only to find the answer is something more horrifying than I care to realize?
I would rather simply hide in my darkness.. my own little world.

It doesn't frighten me as it used to. Now it is calming..
Even when the memories approach from behind.
They still cause so many tears, but that is my way of smiling, right?
So it must be comfort i am feeling.
Solace in my pain.
My mask.


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The poem above was written by me, a little over a year ago during a time of deep depression.
I stumbled across the poem the other day, and was inspired by it. This pieces is the result.

Poem and Pic (c) me

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A very special thanx to ~selficide and ~Maquita for the wonderful stock.
My own =Falln-Stock was also used.
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